Day 100 – A New Milestone

Day 100

A milestone I never imagined reaching—yet here I am, sober for one hundred days. It’s strange how love and fear can coexist. My love for someone I’ll call “Hope” started long before I leapt off that wall, but back then, I was lost in an endless loop of alcohol and self-doubt. Deep down, I knew meeting Hope meant my life had to change. I just didn’t realize how turbulent that change would be.

-- I was terrified of being alone.

-- I was terrified of my own feelings.

I was terrified that the future I wanted—one free of addiction, one led by love—would never happen for me.

Sobriety hasn’t magically erased those fears. If anything, it’s forced me to confront them head-on. But here’s what’s different:

• I understand my past—the loop I was stuck in for years.

• I’ve embraced vulnerability—standing on my own two feet, even when it feels like the ground is shaking.

• I walk forward with hope—one step, one punch, one round at a time.

I still think about Hope every day. Sobriety didn’t take away how much I love her; it just made me see more clearly how important it is to heal myself. And maybe that’s what this journey is truly about—finding the strength to become the best version of me, whether or not life works out how I planned.

Going forward, I’ll be sharing daily updates here. Not because I have it all figured out, but because I believe someone out there might need to hear this:

You’re not alone. If you feel trapped or afraid—if your loop seems never-ending—know there’s a way out. It won’t be perfect, it won’t be easy, but every sober day is proof that change is possible.

I’m still scared, but I’m also alive, clear-minded, and full of a love that won’t quit.

Here’s to Day 100—and all the days to come.

—Your fellow traveler in recovery